frustration

it's that last stretch in this semester - do or die, get good grades or bust.

and my whole undivided attention has been going to everything BUT academics. i have never been this frustrated! look, i KNOW we all are busy late in the year...but there's no excuse to say you're going to do something for an organization, for a group project, for a friend, and then flake out. Or at least, if you're going to flake out, you could have the courtesy to let that person you are letting down KNOW. not just ignore their emails, fb messages, phone texts/calls....

i am currently planning three events - one being a legit formal dinner and dance, and i feel like it's all on me. that is unfair of me to say, because there are a few people, and i emphasize few, who have actually done what they promised to do. but 2 out of 10 is still a terrible percentage, and lately, i've just been losing faith in people. who can you trust? even the people you think are reliable aren't; if they don't feel like what you're planning is as important as you feel it is....when then, you're pretty much screwed. which is where i am. SCREWED.

i WANT all these things to happen. i just wish other people wanted that too.